Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Halo

I've taking the time
I've braided my noose
With eager, with choice 
 Hand over hand
With only this voice
Only this noise
With only this left
And starved of what's right. 

The unborn tingle around my neck 
Comforts me like an electric glow, 
this halo
And why not? 
Better to be remember for what I could have been
Rather then what I am!
Some of us must swallow our future 
Let it break our teeth as it borrows it's self further inside
As we rot away 
As it's justified
furloughing this prison  
As I said...
I would always die here
with her in the meaty parts of my heart...
A disappointment for much too long though not far to linger. 

They will say...
He took his time
He took his light
With meager, so rejoice  
Hand over...
No more voice
No more noise
This is only right
When there's nothing left 

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Intersections

R. Boon
December 25, 2013/January 1, 2014

Intersections

This, late on the night before winter solstice, a little snow on the ground, a few slick patches on the country road, where snow had been packed down to ice.  It was just at the edge of refreezing, and the air was moist, thick.  Patches of fog gathered in the fields. 
            “Come on, girl.  Let’s go see if the creek has a voice tonight,” Brad said to the old dog.  She snuffled at something in the ditch.  He rubbed his hands in his pockets and tried to be patient.  He kicked at a mangled branch.  Just two days before, the county had come through again with their brush hog, destroyed all the grasses built up along the road, snarled tree limbs without clean cuts, destroyed, destroyed.  “The insane part, they think this is a public service.  Boone County Public Works, our main cause of erosion.” 
            He tossed the branch up over the fence line into his field.  He imagined the hostile hum of the power lines overhead.  “And the electric company.  Put up lines over the biggest trees, then blamed the trees and cut them down.  Now they come through every year and chop out the tops of anything left underneath.”  Lucy looked up and trotted farther down the road.  She tolerated his rants and pitied how little he could smell or hear.  Brad followed.
“Now they come spray something to kill all the saplings right under the electric lines.  Even when I refuse permission.  As if that doesn’t bleed over into the field.  More poison.”
Lucy stopped to crouch down and piss.  Brad stopped too, and pissed in loops and lines across the road, trying to design impromptu hieroglyphs.  The road itself was made of gummy oil put down and crushed rock pressed in.  He imagined his piss dissolving the black road, starting new potholes.  “Fuck all of them,” he said aloud.  Lucy finished and moved on downhill.  The fog was thicker over the creek.
“And this new bridge.  Seven months they closed the road because two days a year, there would be a flood over the road.  Seven months—that’s 210 days, more or less.  At two days a year,” he paused to do the math—“that means their solution equaled 105 years of the old problem.” Lucy looked over the edge of the bridge, barked softly.  Brad remembered how old Starbuck, even blind, wouldn’t cross the new bridge.  “He’d go halfway and stop, and pull back.  I’d have to carry him over if we were all going to walk up the far hill.”  He rubbed Lucy’s head.
“Look how they gouged out the embankments.  All these concrete slabs they put in.  And the big rocks they hauled in from somewhere else.”  Lucy barked again, backed away from the edge. “Wrong thinking.”  Brad stopped to listen.  Some creek noise.  The first running water since early spring, when snow was melting.  But the creek now too wide.  The old channel bulldozed out.  And not even enough water for isolated pools.  “What happened to all the minnows?  The crawdads?  No frogs down there all summer.  I never even see snakes anymore.   Our road intersects with their home, and they disappear.”  Lucy backed off the bridge, whining.  “I know, I know, it’s strange I talk to the creek.  And listen to it.
“Remember that flood 6 or 7 years ago?  Water over the road, and all of you knew enough to stay back.  But I wanted to try it.  Must have been fourteen foot over normal, enough to push it over the road.  I waded out into the rush of water, felt a log bump my leg.  And a little farther out, could feel the asphalt moving loose under my feet, as if the whole flood was alive.  Stupid, huh?”
He listened to the water in the creek, heard a rustling, a breeze coming through the winter leaves along the banks.  The fog moved with the breeze, a near-solid cloud.  And something—a deep ringing, like crystal, ethereal.  A breath.  A heartbeat.  “It’s like fog in a movie,” he said, laughing, to Lucy, who had lurched back, growling.  The breeze ended, and the fog climbed the bridge.  Part of the guard railing sagged, crushed with enormous weight down to the concrete.  The bridge itself cracked, trembled.  The road all the way up the hill splintered and shifted.  The fog coiled around him.  “Hello?  Hello?  What--?”  He stared into the fog, and huge red eyes opened and stared at him.  He fell backwards on his butt, and the creek’s voice took form.  “Dragon,” Brad whispered, and smiled. 

 

© 2014, Robert E. Boon